Gisele said the anxiety was so high at one point, it made her consider jumping off a balcony.

"I actually had the feeling of, 'If I just jump off my balcony, this is going to end, and I never have to worry about this feeling of my world closing in,'" she said, revealing that a physician prescribed her Xanax but she chose to change her lifestyle instead. "The thought of being dependent on something felt, in my mind, even worse, because I was like, 'What if I lose that [pill]? Then what? Am I going to die?' The only thing I knew was, I needed help."


She also opened up about getting her boobs done in 2015 after she was done breastfeeding.

In her book, she reportedly recalls waking up from the procedure thinking "What have I done?" She also told People breastfeeding had taken a toll on her body. "I was always praised for my body, and I felt like people had expectations from me that I couldn't deliver. I felt very vulnerable because I can work out [and] I can eat healthy, but I can't change the fact that both of my kids enjoyed the left boob more than the right. All I wanted was for them to be even and for people to stop commenting on it."

"I felt like I was living in a body I didn't recognize," she added. "For the first year, I wore [baggy] clothes because I felt uncomfortable."


Gisele had husband Tom's love and support throughout it all.

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"He just said, 'I love you no matter what' and that I looked beautiful," she shared. "This was definitely another lesson: What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. But I wish I would have learned that a different way." Her book will be available in stores on Tuesday, October 2. 

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