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Gisele said the anxiety was so high at one point, it made her consider jumping off a balcony.

"I actually had the feeling of, 'If I just jump off my balcony, this is going to end, and I never have to worry about this feeling of my world closing in,'" she said, revealing that a physician prescribed her Xanax but she chose to change her lifestyle instead. "The thought of being dependent on something felt, in my mind, even worse, because I was like, 'What if I lose that [pill]? Then what? Am I going to die?' The only thing I knew was, I needed help."

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She also opened up about getting her boobs done in 2015 after she was done breastfeeding.

In her book, she reportedly recalls waking up from the procedure thinking "What have I done?" She also told People breastfeeding had taken a toll on her body. "I was always praised for my body, and I felt like people had expectations from me that I couldn't deliver. I felt very vulnerable because I can work out [and] I can eat healthy, but I can't change the fact that both of my kids enjoyed the left boob more than the right. All I wanted was for them to be even and for people to stop commenting on it."

"I felt like I was living in a body I didn't recognize," she added. "For the first year, I wore [baggy] clothes because I felt uncomfortable."

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Gisele had husband Tom's love and support throughout it all.

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"He just said, 'I love you no matter what' and that I looked beautiful," she shared. "This was definitely another lesson: What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. But I wish I would have learned that a different way." Her book will be available in stores on Tuesday, October 2. 

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